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<\/p>\nThe Orange Bottle My father thought throwing me out into a freezing October storm would teach me a lesson. Three hours later, a police officer called our house and asked him a question that made his blood run cold. \u201cMr. Walls, are you aware your fifteen-year-old daughter was found nearly four miles from home?\u201d But that wasn\u2019t the worst thing the officer told him. The worst part came a few seconds later. And by then, my father couldn\u2019t even stand up without holding onto the wall. My name doesn\u2019t matter as much as what happened to me that night. Not yet, anyway. I\u2019ll tell you my name at the end, when it means something.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
What matters is that I was fifteen years old, soaked to the bone, and about to learn that the people who are supposed to protect you can sometimes become the very reason you need saving. It started with my older sister, Karen. It was a Tuesday night in late October. I was at the kitchen table doing algebra. Systems of equations. Two lines on a graph, and you had to find the one point where they crossed. I remember that because I was stuck on number fourteen when Karen came down the stairs.<\/p>\n
She was nineteen. She had straight auburn hair like our mom used to have, and she wore it down over one shoulder the way Mom did too. She was holding something in her fist. A small orange prescription bottle. She walked right past me into the living room, where Dad was watching the Weather Channel. The storm was coming in from the west. A big red and purple blob on the map. \u201cDad,\u201d Karen said. \u201cI need to show you something.\u201d I put my pencil down and went to the doorway.<\/p>\n
Dad looked up from his recliner. He was a big man, broad in the shoulders, with graying hair he kept cut short. He drove a delivery truck for a beverage company, and his hands were rough and always a little bit cracked.<\/p>\n
Karen held out the bottle. \u201cI found these. With her stuff.\u201d<\/p>\n
She tilted her head toward me.<\/p>\n
I stared at her. \u201cWhat are you talking about?\u201d<\/p>\n
Karen wouldn\u2019t look at me. She kept her eyes on Dad.<\/p>\n
\u201cIn her backpack,\u201d she said. \u201cIn the front pocket. I was looking for a phone charger.\u201d<\/p>\n
My father stood up slowly. He looked at the bottle in Karen\u2019s hand. Then he turned toward me.<\/p>\n
I had seen my dad angry before. I\u2019d seen him yell at the TV during football and slam the truck door when it wouldn\u2019t start. I\u2019d seen him go quiet and hard when Mom was sick, the way a wall is quiet.<\/p>\n
But I had never seen him look at me like this. Like I was something he\u2019d stepped in.<\/p>\n
\u201cDrugs?\u201d he said. \u201cYou\u2019re bringing drugs into my house?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey aren\u2019t mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t you lie to me!\u201d<\/p>\n
His voice slammed through the room. The picture of Mom on the bookshelf actually rattled.<\/p>\n
Karen shifted behind him, still holding the bottle. She had it turned so the label faced her palm. All I could see was orange plastic and a white cap.<\/p>\n
Dad never asked to see it. He never reached out and turned it around. He never read the name.<\/p>\n
That should have told me something.<\/p>\n
Because two days earlier, on Sunday afternoon, I had come downstairs and heard Dad on the house phone in the kitchen. He was talking low.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, she\u2019s not available to discuss a prescription,\u201d he said. \u201cShe\u2019s fifteen. Yeah. I\u2019ll look into it.\u201d<\/p>\n
When he hung up, I asked him what that was about.<\/p>\n
\u201cInsurance mix-up,\u201d he said. He didn\u2019t look at me. He went out to the garage.<\/p>\n
I\u2019d never been prescribed anything in my life. Not even allergy medicine.<\/p>\n
Now, two days later, Karen was standing in our living room saying she\u2019d found drugs in my backpack.<\/p>\n
And somehow, Dad wasn\u2019t interested in putting those two things together.<\/p>\n
\u201cI have given you everything,\u201d Dad shouted. \u201cEverything. A roof over your head. Food on the table. I work fifty hours a week. And this is how you pay me back?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDad, I swear to God, I\u2019ve never seen that bottle before.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour sister found it in your bag!\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at Karen. She was standing near the hallway now, half in shadow. Her face was pale. She looked strange. Nervous. Like she was the one in trouble.<\/p>\n
\u201cKaren,\u201d I whispered. \u201cTell him the truth.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her lips parted.<\/p>\n
For one second, I really thought she was going to do it. I could see the words right there, behind her teeth. Her chin was shaking.<\/p>\n
Then she lowered her eyes to the carpet.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry,\u201d she muttered.<\/p>\n
That was all. I\u2019m sorry. She didn\u2019t say what she was sorry for.<\/p>\n
Dad took it the way he wanted to take it. Like she was sorry she had to turn me in.<\/p>\n
Chapter Two: The Deadbolt<\/p>\n
Dad pointed at the front door.<\/p>\n
\u201cGet out.\u201d<\/p>\n
I froze. I honestly thought I\u2019d heard him wrong.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGet out of my house.\u201d His face was red all the way up to his hairline. \u201cI don\u2019t need a sick daughter. I already watched one person I love waste away in this house. I\u2019m not doing it again.\u201d<\/p>\n
The words knocked the air out of my lungs.<\/p>\n
He meant Mom. Mom had died three years earlier, of ovarian cancer, in the hospital bed we set up in the dining room. She was forty-four. At the end she weighed ninety pounds and she couldn\u2019t remember my middle name.<\/p>\n
And now he was saying I was like that. Sick. Wasting away. Something he had to get rid of before it ruined him again.<\/p>\n
I waited for him to take it back. I waited for his face to crack and for him to say, I didn\u2019t mean that, kiddo.<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t.<\/p>\n
I looked toward the window. Rain was coming down so hard it bounced off the porch railing. The wind was bending the little maple tree in our front yard almost sideways.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad,\u201d I said. \u201cIt\u2019s pouring outside.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShould have thought about that before you brought that garbage under my roof.\u201d<\/p>\n
I was wearing a navy sweatshirt with my school\u2019s name on it, faded jeans with a hole in one knee, and my old Converse sneakers with the laces I never tied right. My dark brown hair was up in a messy ponytail.<\/p>\n
My phone was upstairs, charging on my nightstand. My winter coat was hanging in the hallway closet. My wallet, with twenty-two dollars and my school ID, was on my desk.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan I at least get my\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNow!\u201d<\/p>\n
Karen flinched like he\u2019d hit her.<\/p>\n
I wanted to scream. I wanted to grab the bottle out of Karen\u2019s hand and shove it in his face and make him read the label out loud. I wanted to ask him why the pharmacy was calling about me on Sunday when I didn\u2019t take any medication.<\/p>\n
But something inside me went very, very quiet.<\/p>\n
My father had already chosen who to believe. I could see it on his face. Arguing wouldn\u2019t change it. Crying wouldn\u2019t change it. He\u2019d made up his mind before Karen even finished talking.<\/p>\n
I picked up my old green JanSport backpack from beside the stairs. It was almost empty. There was nothing in it except a half-finished algebra worksheet, a pencil with a chewed eraser, and a granola bar wrapper.<\/p>\n
Number fourteen was still blank.<\/p>\n
I put the backpack over my shoulder. I walked to the front door. I opened it.<\/p>\n
Freezing rain swept across the porch and stung my cheeks like little needles.<\/p>\n
I stepped outside.<\/p>\n
Behind me, Dad slammed the door.<\/p>\n
A second later, I heard the deadbolt turn.<\/p>\n
Click.<\/p>\n
I will remember that sound for the rest of my life. I still hear it sometimes when I\u2019m falling asleep. A small, ordinary sound, the sound of a lock doing exactly what locks are supposed to do.<\/p>\n
For a while, I just stood there under the porch roof. Rain was blowing in sideways and getting my jeans wet, but I didn\u2019t move. I was waiting.<\/p>\n
Surely he\u2019d come back. He\u2019d open the door and say, Get in here, it\u2019s freezing, we\u2019ll talk about this in the morning.<\/p>\n
Surely Karen would say something. She\u2019d break down and tell him the truth, and he\u2019d come running out with my coat.<\/p>\n
Surely somebody in that house would remember I was only fifteen.<\/p>\n
I watched the window. I could see the blue light of the TV flickering on the ceiling. I could see a shadow move across the hallway. Then the porch light went off.<\/p>\n
He turned off the porch light.<\/p>\n
So I walked away.<\/p>\n
At first, anger kept my feet moving.<\/p>\n
I marched down Linden Street under the flickering streetlights with my jaw clenched so tight my teeth hurt. I told myself I didn\u2019t need them. I told myself I\u2019d go somewhere safe, somewhere warm, and in the morning Dad would wake up and realize what he\u2019d done, and he\u2019d feel terrible.<\/p>\n
I wanted him to feel terrible. I wanted it so badly.<\/p>\n
But by the time I reached the end of our neighborhood, where Linden runs into County Road 9, I realized something.<\/p>\n
I had nowhere to go.<\/p>\n
My best friend, Priya, lived on the other side of town, almost seven miles away. I didn\u2019t know her parents\u2019 phone number by heart. I didn\u2019t know anybody\u2019s number by heart except my own and my dad\u2019s. Everybody else was just a name on a screen. And the screen was upstairs on my nightstand.<\/p>\n
Our neighbors were mostly older people I\u2019d never really talked to. The Hendersons, who yelled at kids for walking on their grass. Mrs. Pike, who was in a nursing home now. A young couple I\u2019d never even seen.<\/p>\n
I stood at the corner in the rain and thought about knocking on a stranger\u2019s door. What would I even say? My dad kicked me out because my sister said I had drugs?<\/p>\n
They\u2019d call him. Of course they\u2019d call him. And he\u2019d come down the street in his truck and tell them I was a liar, and they\u2019d believe him, because he was the adult.<\/p>\n
So I turned onto County Road 9 and kept walking.<\/p>\n
Chapter Three: Four Miles<\/p>\n
County Road 9 runs east out of our town for about twelve miles before it hits the highway. There\u2019s a gas station somewhere out there. I\u2019d seen it from the car. A Marathon with a little convenience store.<\/p>\n
I figured if I could get there, I could ask to use the phone. I could call Priya\u2019s house by looking up the number. Maybe I could even call my aunt Diane in Columbus.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t know how far it was. I thought maybe two miles. Maybe three.<\/p>\n
It was nine.<\/p>\n
Within ten minutes, the rain had soaked all the way through my sweatshirt. It got heavier as it got wet, and it pulled down on my shoulders like a lead blanket. Cold water ran down the back of my neck and down my spine.<\/p>\n
My jeans stuck to my legs. My Converse filled up with water until every single step made a miserable squishing sound.<\/p>\n
I kept turning around to look at the road behind me.<\/p>\n
Every time a pair of headlights came over the hill, my heart jumped in my chest. That\u2019s him. He changed his mind. He\u2019s sorry.<\/p>\n
But every car just kept going. Their tires hissed on the wet road, and their taillights got smaller and smaller and disappeared.<\/p>\n
Nobody stopped. I don\u2019t think anybody even saw me. I was a dark shape on the side of a dark road in a navy sweatshirt.<\/p>\n
I thought about Karen while I walked. I couldn\u2019t stop thinking about her.<\/p>\n
Karen used to be my favorite person in the world. When I was little, she\u2019d let me sleep in her bed during thunderstorms. She taught me to ride a bike. She used to braid my hair before school, French braids, so tight it made my eyes water.<\/p>\n
Then Mom got sick. And Karen changed.<\/p>\n
She was sixteen then. She stopped braiding my hair. She stopped coming home after volleyball practice. She\u2019d go out with her friends and come home late and go straight to her room and lock the door.<\/p>\n
When Mom died, Karen didn\u2019t cry at the funeral. Not once. I cried so hard I threw up in the church bathroom. Karen just stood there in her black dress with her arms crossed, staring at the casket like she was angry at it.<\/p>\n
The next spring, she tore her ACL during a volleyball game. Her right knee. I heard it pop from the bleachers. She had surgery in May, and the doctor gave her a bottle of painkillers. Oxycodone.<\/p>\n
I remember Dad picking up the prescription at the CVS on Main Street. I remember Karen saying they made her feel like she was floating.<\/p>\n
She was supposed to take them for two weeks.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t know when they stopped being for her knee.<\/p>\n
After the first mile, I couldn\u2019t stop shivering.<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t regular shivering. It was the kind that starts in your stomach and spreads outward, so your whole body jerks. My teeth chattered so hard I bit my tongue and tasted blood.<\/p>\n
After the second mile, my fingers started going numb. They felt thick and clumsy, like I was wearing invisible oven mitts. I tried to stuff my hands under my armpits, but my armpits were wet too, and the shaking only got worse.<\/p>\n
Thunder rolled over the trees. The wind pushed the rain sideways across the empty road, straight into my face, so I had to walk with my head down.<\/p>\n
\u201cJust keep walking,\u201d I whispered.<\/p>\n
My voice sounded tiny. The storm swallowed it whole.<\/p>\n
The road went on and on. There were no sidewalks. No streetlights after the first mile. Just a narrow gravel shoulder and a ditch on the side, full of rushing water, and on the other side of the ditch, dark fields and patches of woods.<\/p>\n
No houses with their lights on. No businesses. No shelter.<\/p>\n
Somewhere in the third mile, my thoughts started slipping.<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t remember if I\u2019d passed the same mailbox twice. There was a mailbox shaped like a fish, I think, and then later I saw it again. Or maybe it was a different fish. I kept looking for road signs, but they blurred in the rain and I couldn\u2019t read them.<\/p>\n
At one point, I saw our kitchen window. I swear I did. It was glowing yellow through the trees on my left, warm and bright, with the blue curtains Mom sewed. I could even smell Dad\u2019s coffee, the cheap Folgers kind he made every morning.<\/p>\n
Then I blinked. And there was nothing there. Just black trees and rain.<\/p>\n
My knees started trembling. My chest hurt, a tight squeezing pain right in the middle, like someone was standing on it.<\/p>\n
And then something strange happened.<\/p>\n
I stopped feeling cold.<\/p>\n
I was so cold that suddenly I didn\u2019t feel cold enough anymore. I felt almost warm. I had the strangest urge to take off my sweatshirt, because it felt too heavy and too hot.<\/p>\n
That frightened me more than anything else that night. Because even in my foggy brain, I knew that was wrong. We\u2019d learned about it in health class, in the unit on outdoor safety. When you stop feeling cold, it means your body is giving up.<\/p>\n
I remember thinking about my backpack. How stupid it was. I\u2019d grabbed my algebra homework, and I hadn\u2019t grabbed my coat.<\/p>\n
Number fourteen. Two lines. Find where they cross.<\/p>\n
Then my right knee buckled.<\/p>\n
I stumbled sideways onto the gravel shoulder. My hands hit the ground, and I didn\u2019t even feel the rocks.<\/p>\n
\u201cGet up,\u201d I told myself. \u201cGet up.\u201d<\/p>\n
I pushed against the ground. My arms shook so violently I could barely lift myself. I got one foot under me. Then the other. I managed one step.<\/p>\n
Then my left knee gave out.<\/p>\n
My cheek hit the wet gravel. I felt it, distantly, like it was happening to someone else.<\/p>\n
Somewhere nearby, tires hissed along the road. A car. I tried to yell. I opened my mouth and nothing came out. Not a word. Not a sound.<\/p>\n
The car kept going.<\/p>\n
My backpack had slipped around under my chest. I curled around it the way you\u2019d curl around a pillow. I pressed my numb hands against the wet green fabric.<\/p>\n
Rain washed across my face. It got in my eyes and I couldn\u2019t close them fast enough.<\/p>\n
I thought about the porch light going off.<\/p>\n
About Karen staring at the carpet.<\/p>\n
About Dad turning the lock.<\/p>\n
Click.<\/p>\n
And then the world just went away.<\/p>\n
Chapter Four: The Phone Call<\/p>\n
Everything I\u2019m about to tell you, I learned later. From Officer Daniels. From the doctors. From the woman who found me. From my father, a long time afterward, when he could finally say it out loud.<\/p>\n
I wasn\u2019t there for any of it. Not really.<\/p>\n
Her name was Rosalind Okafor, but everybody called her Roz. She was fifty-three years old and she was a home health nurse. That night, she\u2019d worked a double shift taking care of an old man with Parkinson\u2019s in a farmhouse out past the county line, and she was driving home on County Road 9 a little after eleven.<\/p>\n
She almost didn\u2019t see me.<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought you were a garbage bag,\u201d she told me later, sitting by my hospital bed. \u201cThat\u2019s the God\u2019s honest truth, baby. A big dark lump on the side of the road. I was already past you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then her headlights caught something. A flash of white.<\/p>\n
My sneaker. The white rubber toe of my Converse.<\/p>\n
Roz slammed on her brakes so hard her purse flew off the passenger seat. She threw her car in reverse and backed up fifty feet on a dark wet road in the rain, which she says is the most dangerous thing she\u2019s ever done in her life.<\/p>\n
She found me lying at the edge of the drainage ditch. My face was turned to the side. My lips were blue. My skin was white, so white it almost glowed in her headlights.<\/p>\n
She knelt down in the gravel and put two fingers on my neck.<\/p>\n
Nothing.<\/p>\n
She put her ear down against my mouth.<\/p>\n
Nothing.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ve been a nurse for twenty-nine years,\u201d Roz told me. \u201cI knew what I was looking at. I knew it was bad. But you were so little, curled up around that backpack like a baby with a blanket. I said, Lord, not this one. Not on my road.\u201d<\/p>\n
She called 911 on her cell phone. She put it on speaker and set it on the gravel. Then she rolled me onto my back, tilted my head, and started chest compressions right there on the side of County Road 9, in the freezing rain, with water running into her collar.<\/p>\n
The dispatcher counted with her. One, two, three, four. Roz says she broke two of my ribs. She says she could feel them go. She kept pushing.<\/p>\n
It took the ambulance fourteen minutes to get there.<\/p>\n
Roz did CPR on me for fourteen minutes.<\/p>\n
The paramedics took over. They cut off my wet sweatshirt right there in the ambulance and wrapped me in warm blankets and put heat packs under my arms. They put a breathing tube down my throat.<\/p>\n
On the way to the hospital, my heart started again. Weak and slow and uneven. But it started.<\/p>\n
My core body temperature, when they got me to Mercy General, was 82 degrees.<\/p>\n
Normal is 98.6.<\/p>\n
Back at home, my father had no idea where I was.<\/p>\n
Maybe he thought I\u2019d gone to a neighbor\u2019s. Maybe he thought I was sitting on the back porch, sulking, waiting to come in. Maybe he expected me to come back in an hour, crying and begging at the door.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t really know what he was thinking. He\u2019s never been able to tell me. He says he doesn\u2019t remember the first two hours. He says he sat in his recliner watching the Weather Channel and didn\u2019t see any of it.<\/p>\n
What I do know is that nearly three hours after he locked the door, at 12:47 in the morning, the house phone rang.<\/p>\n
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