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<\/p>\nThe first Saturday after the divorce was final, Kaylee and I tore out the weight bench and the treadmill together. We carried them out to the curb in pieces. Kaylee unscrewed the mirror from the wall herself, with my cordless drill, and she didn\u2019t hand it back to me when she was done. She just stood there looking at the four holes it left in the drywall.<\/p>\n
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\u201cMom picked this color,\u201d she said quietly, putting her hand flat on the pale yellow wall. \u201cGrandma told me. She said Mom painted it herself when she was eight months pregnant, and Daddy yelled at her for being on a ladder.\u201d \u201cI did yell,\u201d I said. \u201cShe didn\u2019t listen. She never listened.\u201d Kaylee laughed. \u201cSounds like somebody I know.\u201d<\/p>\n
We spackled the holes. We bought two gallons of the exact same pale yellow from the paint store on Georgia Street. The man at the counter had to match it from a chip Kaylee peeled off the wall behind where the mirror used to hang.<\/p>\n
We painted all weekend with the windows open and the radio on. We got paint in our hair. We got paint on the dog. We ate pizza sitting on the drop cloth in the middle of the floor.<\/p>\n
On Sunday night, we put her bed back together. Her bookshelf. Her softball trophies. A picture of Amy holding her on the first day of kindergarten, which Kaylee had kept hidden in the camper under a loose board the whole five weeks.<\/p>\n
When it was finished, Kaylee stood in her bedroom doorway, holding the baby monitor.<\/p>\n
The parent unit. The one with the little green light. The one she\u2019d taped to a camper wall in the freezing dark and listened to for thirty-one nights.<\/p>\n
She looked at it for a long time.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t need this anymore,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
She handed it to me.<\/p>\n
Then she walked over to her nightstand. She took the other half, the transmitter, out of a shoebox, and she set it down next to her lamp and plugged it in.<\/p>\n
The little green light came on.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut you can keep it,\u201d she said. \u201cJust in case you want to hear me sometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
That was almost a year ago now.<\/p>\n
Kaylee turned seventeen last month. We had the party at the house. Just family this time. Joanne. Frank and Carol. A couple of girls from the softball team.<\/p>\n
I bought a strawberry cake from the grocery store. She made me light the candles twice because the first time I counted wrong.<\/p>\n
Before she blew them out, she looked down the table at everybody. At her grandparents. At her aunt. At me.<\/p>\n
\u201cLast year,\u201d she said, \u201cI wished for somebody to hear me.\u201d<\/p>\n
She smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis year, I just want everybody to keep listening.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then she blew out all seventeen candles in one breath.<\/p>\n
The trust is still at First National. $322,000 now. Harlan Pruett sends me a statement every quarter, and Kaylee and I sit at the kitchen table and read it together, line by line. She wants to study nursing at Texas Tech, like her mother almost did before she switched to teaching. The trust will cover all four years and then some.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom planned for this,\u201d Kaylee said, tapping the balance with her finger. \u201cDidn\u2019t she.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShe planned for everything,\u201d I said. \u201cExcept me being stupid.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou weren\u2019t stupid, Dad.\u201d She put her hand over mine. \u201cYou were tired. And you came home.\u201d<\/p>\n
The parent unit sits on my nightstand now, beside my alarm clock and my wedding picture with Amy.<\/p>\n
Some nights, I turn it on.<\/p>\n
Mostly I just hear her moving around. Turning pages. Laughing at something on her phone. Once, I heard her practicing a speech for English class four times in a row, and I almost knocked on her door to tell her the third one was best.<\/p>\n
But most nights, right before she falls asleep, I hear her humming.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the same song her mother used to hum when she rocked her in that pale yellow room. An old Patsy Cline song Amy loved. I never once told Kaylee about it. She was too little to remember.<\/p>\n
But somehow, she knows it.<\/p>\n
I lie there in the dark and listen, with the volume turned all the way up.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s enough.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s more than enough.<\/p>\n
The transition from high school senior to college freshman didn\u2019t happen in a single, clean break; it unfolded in a series of small, quiet room conversions.<\/p>\n
First went the soft pink throw pillows from her middle school years, replaced by twin-XL bedding sets packed tightly into clear plastic storage bins. Then went the softball trophies, moved systematically from her desk shelves to the top shelf of her closet to make room for heavy anatomy textbooks, medical terminology flashcards, and a desk lamp with three light settings.<\/p>\n
Every evening after dinner, I\u2019d sit in the living room while Kaylee studied at the kitchen table. The house felt different than it had a year prior\u2014less heavy, but full of an anticipation that made the quiet moments feel fragile. The trust statements from Harlan Pruett arrived like clockwork every three months at First National. The balance hovered steadily around three hundred twenty-five thousand dollars after interest. Each time the envelope arrived, Kaylee opened it herself with the brass letter opener Amy had kept in the front hallway drawer.<\/p>\n
\u201cRegistration deposit is paid,\u201d she told me one Tuesday evening in late April, holding up the confirmation printout. Her thumb brushed the corner of the paper where the blue Texas Tech emblem was printed. \u201cDorm room selection opens next week.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhich building?\u201d I asked, looking up from the kitchen sink where I was washing the dinner dishes.<\/p>\n
\u201cBledsoe,\u201d she said without hesitation. \u201cIt\u2019s close to the science hall. And it\u2019s quiet.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cQuiet is good,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
She nodded, watching me stack the clean plates into the wooden drying rack. \u201cDad?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, kiddo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you going to be okay here? By yourself?\u201d<\/p>\n
It was the first time she\u2019d asked it directly, though the question had been hanging between us like dust motes in the morning light for months. I dried my hands on the dish towel, taking my time before turning around to face her.<\/p>\n
\u201cI was okay before,\u201d I lied gently. Then I caught her eye and corrected myself. \u201cNo, that\u2019s not true. I wasn\u2019t okay. But I learned how to be. And the house isn\u2019t as big as it used to feel.\u201d<\/p>\n
She accepted the half-truth with a small, understanding smile.<\/p>\n
That night, after the house settled into its usual late-night rhythm\u2014the low hum of the refrigerator, the faint creak of the floorboards in the hallway as the temperature dropped\u2014I turned on the monitor on my nightstand.<\/p>\n
For the past year, the little plastic receiver had been my quiet anchor. It stayed plugged into the wall right beside Amy\u2019s picture. At first, listening had felt like a confession of weakness\u2014a dad who couldn\u2019t let go of the baby monitor long after his daughter had grown up. But over time, it had become something else: a record of her living.<\/p>\n
Through the faint static, I heard the crinkle of paper. Kaylee was packing up her backpack for the next morning. Then came the soft\u00a0click<\/em>\u00a0of her lamp turning off.<\/p>\n A moment of absolute silence followed, long enough that someone else might have switched the receiver off. But I waited.<\/p>\n And there it was. Low, tentative, slightly off-key in the verses but pure on the chorus:\u00a0\u201cI fall to pieces\u2026 each time I see you again\u2026\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n She didn\u2019t hum it every night anymore\u2014only when she was exhausted, or when she\u2019d spent the whole day buried in schoolwork. Hearing it felt like reaching across a dark room and finding a solid wall. Amy had sang that exact melody when Kaylee was six months old, bouncing her gently on her hip by the window while the summer rain came down outside. I hadn\u2019t thought about that afternoon in fifteen years, but every time Kaylee hummed it, the memory returned with exact clarity\u2014the smell of rain on the warm asphalt outside, the pale light on Amy\u2019s collarbone, the smallness of Kaylee\u2019s hands folded against her chest.<\/p>\n By June, the packing moved from quiet preparation to full-scale logistics. Cardboard boxes lined the hallway. Frank and Carol came over on a Sunday afternoon to help pack up the heavier stuff.<\/p>\n Frank stood in the doorway of Kaylee\u2019s bedroom, holding a box of old paperbacks, looking around at the bare walls where her posters had hung for five years. \u201cDoesn\u2019t seem right, moving her out,\u201d he muttered, adjusting his glasses. \u201cFeels like yesterday you brought her home from the hospital in that tiny car seat.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cTime moves fast when you\u2019re not paying attention,\u201d I said, taping up a box of winter coats.<\/p>\n \u201cYou paying attention now, Tom?\u201d Frank asked softly, looking at me over the top of his frames.<\/p>\n \u201cEvery second,\u201d I replied.<\/p>\n Carol came out of the kitchen carrying a pitcher of iced tea. \u201cShe\u2019s going to excel down there, Tom. Amy would have been out of her mind proud. You know that, don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI hope so,\u201d I said, wiping my forehead with the back of my arm. \u201cI really hope so.\u201d<\/p>\n The night before we loaded the truck, Kaylee came into my room while I was sitting on the edge of the bed, re-tying my boots. She didn\u2019t say anything at first. She just walked over to the nightstand, picked up the white plastic parent unit, and turned it over in her hands.<\/p>\n \u201cYou still use this?\u201d she asked gently.<\/p>\n I froze for a second, feeling a sudden heat rise in my neck. \u201cSometimes,\u201d I confessed. \u201cWhen I can\u2019t sleep.\u201d<\/p>\n She didn\u2019t laugh, and she didn\u2019t look away. She pressed her thumb against the volume wheel on the side, feeling the small plastic ridges.<\/p>\n \u201cI knew,\u201d she said softly.<\/p>\n I looked up at her. \u201cYou knew?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThe green light on the unit in my room,\u201d she said, giving a small, wry smile. \u201cIt turns bright green whenever the microphone picks up sound. It\u2019s been glowing every night since I was sixteen.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cKaylee\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cI didn\u2019t mind, Dad,\u201d she interrupted, stepping closer and placing the unit back down on the wooden surface beside Amy\u2019s picture. \u201cIt made me feel like somebody was staying awake so I didn\u2019t have to.\u201d<\/p>\n She turned and left the room before I could find the right words to answer her.<\/p>\n The first Saturday after the divorce was final, Kaylee and I tore out the weight bench and the treadmill together. We carried them out to the curb in pieces. 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