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<\/p>\n\u201cThen he told me I could be a dinosaur too. But I had to be the daddy one because I was big.\u201d \u201cAnd you\u2019ve been Daddy Dinosaur ever since.\u201d \u201cApparently.\u201d I told Julian what Charlie had said. That Theo believed heroes always forgot something. Julian looked at the little plastic dinosaur.<\/p>\n
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\u201cI have to return this next week.\u201d \u201cHe sleeps with it, right?\u201d \u201cEvery night.\u201d \u201cThen why give it to you?\u201d Julian stared at the toy for a long moment. Finally, he said, \u201cHis dad didn\u2019t come.\u201d I waited. \u201cBut I did.\u201d Then I understood. Theo hadn\u2019t given Julian his favorite toy. He had created a reason for Julian to return.<\/p>\n
The only way a five-year-old knew how to guarantee somebody would come back. \u201cJulian?\u201d \u201cYeah?\u201d \u201cCan I come next Thursday?\u201d He looked at me. \u201cDani.\u201d \u201cI know.\u201d \u201cYou\u2019re going to take everything home with you.\u201d \u201cI know.\u201d \u201cYou\u2019ll cry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
He hesitated.<\/p>\n
Then I said,<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ve been carrying it alone for a year.\u201d<\/p>\n
Julian looked away.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou lie awake too, don\u2019t you? On the nights Theo\u2019s dad doesn\u2019t arrive.\u201d<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t answer.<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t need to.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t have to carry this by yourself either.\u201d<\/p>\n
Finally, he nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cOne day a week.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThursday.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo Saturdays.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo Tuesdays.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo skipping lunch to buy glitter.\u201d<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cAbsolutely no promises about glitter.\u201d<\/p>\n
He laughed.<\/p>\n
The paper crown fell off his head.<\/p>\n
The next Thursday, I went with him.<\/p>\n
I left work early and met him outside the visitation center.<\/p>\n
Julian stood beside his car in his tie holding a paper bag.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s in there?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cApple juice.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFor Theo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe boxes have dinosaurs on them.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course.\u201d<\/p>\n
I hadn\u2019t been inside for fourteen years.<\/p>\n
My hands started shaking.<\/p>\n
Julian noticed.<\/p>\n
Of course he did.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou okay?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMe neither.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cEvery week?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEvery week.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then he took my hand.<\/p>\n
Inside, the room had changed slightly.<\/p>\n
Different carpet.<\/p>\n
Different paint.<\/p>\n
Newer books.<\/p>\n
But the plastic chairs were still lined beneath the big window facing the parking lot.<\/p>\n
And in the chair closest to the glass sat a little boy.<\/p>\n
Five years old.<\/p>\n
Messy brown hair.<\/p>\n
Dinosaur shirt.<\/p>\n
Shoes that flashed when he moved.<\/p>\n
He was watching the parking lot.<\/p>\n
Then he heard the door.<\/p>\n
Turned around.<\/p>\n
Saw Julian.<\/p>\n
His entire face lit up.<\/p>\n
\u201cDADDY DINOSAUR!\u201d<\/p>\n
Theo launched himself across the room.<\/p>\n
His shoes flashed with every step.<\/p>\n
He crashed into Julian\u2019s legs.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou came back!\u201d<\/p>\n
Julian laughed and knelt down.<\/p>\n
Theo immediately asked,<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you bring him?\u201d<\/p>\n
Julian reached into his jacket.<\/p>\n
Pulled out the green T. rex.<\/p>\n
Theo hugged it against his chest.<\/p>\n
\u201cI knew you\u2019d come back.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then he whispered,<\/p>\n
\u201cHeroes always come back.\u201d<\/p>\n
A moment later, Theo noticed me.<\/p>\n
He studied me very seriously.<\/p>\n
\u201cWho\u2019s she?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s my wife. Dani.\u201d<\/p>\n
Theo considered this.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs she a dinosaur?\u201d<\/p>\n
Julian looked at me.<\/p>\n
I knelt beside them.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019d like to be. What kind should I be?\u201d<\/p>\n
Theo tilted his head.<\/p>\n
Then gave his decision.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can be Mommy Dinosaur. Daddy Dinosaur needs somebody.\u201d<\/p>\n
For a second, I forgot how to breathe.<\/p>\n
Julian squeezed my hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay,\u201d I whispered. \u201cMommy Dinosaur it is.\u201d<\/p>\n
Theo nodded, satisfied.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood. We need a nest.\u201d<\/p>\n
He pointed across the room.<\/p>\n
\u201cCharlie\u2019s the turtle. He doesn\u2019t know what he\u2019s doing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Charlie sat surrounded by cardboard boxes.<\/p>\n
He waved.<\/p>\n
\u201cI really don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
At 4:34, Theo\u2019s father came through the front door.<\/p>\n
Four minutes late.<\/p>\n
Out of breath.<\/p>\n
Still wearing his car wash uniform.<\/p>\n
\u201cSorry. The bus was late.\u201d<\/p>\n
Theo looked up.<\/p>\n
Then dropped everything.<\/p>\n
Crayons.<\/p>\n
Cardboard.<\/p>\n
Even the dinosaur.<\/p>\n
\u201cDADDY!\u201d<\/p>\n
He ran across the room.<\/p>\n
His father dropped to his knees and caught him.<\/p>\n
Held him tightly.<\/p>\n
His shoulders shook.<\/p>\n
Julian and I watched quietly.<\/p>\n
After a while, Julian picked up the green dinosaur and placed it carefully on Theo\u2019s chair beside the window.<\/p>\n
Where he would find it later.<\/p>\n
On the drive home, I cried.<\/p>\n
Exactly as Julian predicted.<\/p>\n
He never said I told you so.<\/p>\n
He simply held my hand across the center console.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs it like that every week?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cSometimes his dad doesn\u2019t come.\u201d<\/p>\n
He paused.<\/p>\n
\u201cThose weeks are harder.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow do you keep doing it?\u201d<\/p>\n
Julian thought for a moment.<\/p>\n
Then repeated the words I had once given him.<\/p>\n
\u201cNobody should have to wait for someone who might never come.\u201d<\/p>\n
I nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI remember.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t fix Theo\u2019s father.\u201d<\/p>\n
He squeezed my hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t fix transportation. Recovery. Custody. Any of it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then he looked at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut while Theo is waiting, I can make sure he isn\u2019t waiting alone.\u201d<\/p>\n
The paper crown hangs on our refrigerator now.<\/p>\n
Held up by a sunflower magnet.<\/p>\n
KING DINOSAUR.<\/p>\n
The GREAT JOB sticker is still peeling off one corner.<\/p>\n
Julian once tried removing it.<\/p>\n
\u201cPeople are going to ask questions.\u201d<\/p>\n
I put it right back.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
I go with him every Thursday now.<\/p>\n
Only Thursdays.<\/p>\n
That was our agreement.<\/p>\n
And yes, I sometimes skip lunch and buy glitter.<\/p>\n
Julian pretends this annoys him.<\/p>\n
It doesn\u2019t.<\/p>\n
For years, I thought I knew my husband completely.<\/p>\n
Coffee at 7:30.<\/p>\n
One sugar.<\/p>\n
Forehead kiss.<\/p>\n
Thursday gym.<\/p>\n
Every pot lid lifted before he said hello.<\/p>\n
Then a stranger stood on my porch and told me where Julian\u2019s missing phone had been found.<\/p>\n
For one awful moment, I thought the man I trusted most had been living another life behind my back.<\/p>\n
I was right about one thing.<\/p>\n
There was a secret.<\/p>\n
It simply wasn\u2019t the kind I feared.<\/p>\n
Sometimes the biggest thing the person you love is hiding isn\u2019t betrayal.<\/p>\n
It isn\u2019t another partner.<\/p>\n
Another family.<\/p>\n
Another life.<\/p>\n
Sometimes it\u2019s simply the good they\u2019ve been doing quietly.<\/p>\n
Every Thursday afternoon.<\/p>\n
On their hands and knees on a green carpet.<\/p>\n
Wearing a paper crown.<\/p>\n
When they thought nobody was watching.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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